And the great days keep going on and on

I'm having one of those days. One of those most enchanting days. The days when you realize how magical this all is and how fragile life is and how tiny little human being is. Sha is spending today mesmorized by my every smile and gesture. He peers up with those big, big eyes, showing off new ability to raise his head off of my chest and I just can't help but think of how dependant he is and how trusting he is and how perfect life is right now. Beyond perfect. I wish I could make it through..."You are My Sunshine..." but I just can't. Even watching him sleep is pure joy. And thanks to Dr. C, I could not make it through..."I'll Love You Forever" book. Whephf. My soul is moved and my heart is full. And out of everything I have ever done this will forever be my greatest accomplishment.

I have been given my favourite gift.

I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
As long as I'm living,
My baby you'll be.

It's cold in here
Feels like everything's upside down
I can feel you talking
But I can hardly make out the sound
And I've been kicking around these parts
Feels like a year
And I'm going to change this world
If I ever get out of here
She wants to dress me in pink
Paints my bedroom blue
And I just laugh to myself
Cause only I know the truth

This love is my only emotion
Haven't learned any fear, any shame
It's kind of funny with all this commotion
Guess they've got me to blame
They don't even know my name

Stuff About Me

1. What is your full name? Ma Booblah
2. What color pants are you wearing? blue
3. What are you listening to right now? Jeremy and baby sleeping noises
4. What was the last thing you ate? apple crisp with whip cream from my MIL...yummy
5. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? nude
6. How is the weather right now? raining and cold
7. Last person you spoke to on the phone? Carrie (of course!)
9. How old are you today? 28
10. Your favorite drink? DIET COKE - is there any other drinks on the planet?
11. Favorite sport? Napping
12. Hair color? blonde, maybe
13. Do you wear contacts? yes
14. Siblings? Kendal and Carrie
15. Favorite month? August
16. Favorite food? Dessert
17. What was the last movie you saw? Over the Hedge
18. Favorite day of the year? Christmas
19. What do you do to vent anger? Cry...I soooo wish I didn't do that and swear...a little!
20. What was your favorite toy as a child? Barbie - that girl had everything
21. Hugs or Kisses? Kisses
22. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate
23. When was the last time you cried? A couple of hours ago
28. What is under your bed? Carpet
30.What are you afraid of? Being alone
31. Favorite kind of flower? Anything delivered
32. Number of keys on your key ring? So many that I have no idea what they open
33. How long at your current job? 5 years
34. What did you do on your last b-day? Campfire
35. How many states/provinces have you lived in? This one

Because it is almost Halloween

Since halloween ain't far off... time to freshen up on pumpkin carving skills :)

Click the carving knife once the click the pumpkin to start carving your virtual pumpkin.

http://www.liquidgeneration.com/sabotage/pumpkin_carve.asp

Very Strange History Lesson

It seems that from 1903 to the 1940, Dr. Martin A. Couney used preemies as a freak attraction in incubators, just like the other participants like the bearded lady and such.

The babies were lined up under heaters and they breathed filtered air. Few of them weighed more than three pounds. They shared the Boardwalk there on Coney Island with Violetta the Armless Legless Wonder, Princess WeeWee, Ajax the Sword-Swallower and all the rest. From 1903 until the early 1940's, premature infants in incubators were part of the carnival.

It cost a quarter to see the babies, and people came again and again, to coo and to gasp and say look how small, look how small. There were twins, even, George and Norma Johnson, born the day before Independence Day in 1937. They had four and a half pounds between them, appearing in the world a month too soon because Dorothy Johnson stepped off a curb wrong and went into labor.

Cartoon Therapy

I just realized that nothing really bizarre has happened to me since we have been home. Really nothing out of the ordinary, nothing funny. Unless you consider baby vomit funny, which it kind of is...This is totally not like my life.

So, I rented "Over the Hedge", which is the best thing about children. The fact that their movies are hysterical.

Glad to see Melissa back. My most faithful commenter. What would are family be like without you in it? I can't even imagine. You are such a great friend to me and motherhood fits you like a glove. I am so darn excited for all of you! Speaking of puking, I hope you are feeling ok...

Ma

It got to me

I'm just finishing reading an internet article on the cost of Preemie Care and if the cost is too high and if the risks outweigh the benefits.

The article was published in the US in regards to the high costs to the system and to the parent's wallets.

And it just reminded me of one of the most difficult things that was said to me when Sha was in hospital...

This guy, who I don't really know all that well, after learning of our situation, said "Well, the truth is, you can always have other babies." And the first time I let it go. I tried not to think about how I had spent 7 days in hospital planning our words, if we were writing a birth announcement or an obituary. But the next time I saw him he said again "The truth is, you can always have other babies." And I replied "I don't really want other babies, I just want the one I have been given."

But of course it would be wrong to say...if your wife was critically ill (not that I would wish this on anyone!) "Well, the truth is, there are a lot of single women out there, so you can always get another wife". But I sure wanted to point that out.

I know that sometimes people just don't know what to say. I do know that. But this just got under my skin.

The people who say, I'm sorry your baby was born. Ummm. I'm not. I'm sorry he was born so early, but I'm not sorry he was born.

Anyhoo...enough venting. Like a wise women told me, "It is better to eat dry toast, than to butter your morning bread with poison". Enough said.

I feel better.
Ma

To everyone I ditched today

Sorry...I feel asleep and now I know it is too late to call back.

Just wondering

Just thought I would throw up this poll to get some opinions on cosleeping. Well...due to Sha's oxygen and Pa's sleeping habits (nightmares and the like), we figure it really isn't a good idea to cosleep with baby Sha. But of course, he is really, really cuddly and really soft and really warm. Which makes it really tough for his Ma to put him in his bed, even though it is in our room. Especially now that we can hold him whenever we want!! :-)

Anyhoo...just thought I could open this up to comments for and against and get some opinions on what other people do. I know that things that work for one family, don't necessarily work for another...

Let the games begin!
Ma

Please feel free to leave a comment...or if you like...just a vote.

Poll

Have you coslept with your child? Yes No Sometimes Free polls from Pollhost.com

I love getting up with you

It doesn't seem so long ago that I was just feeling the early signs of you inside of me. I can't believe how difficult it is to remember what it felt like. I can describe it to myself as little flutters and soft bumping but I really have a hard time remembering it. I remember thinking how strange that there were two of us in the shower together or in the car driving to work together. I would ask your Pa but he never did get to feel it...

It is getting hazy now to remember what you looked like at first. I know I can look at pictures, but it is tough to picture in my mind what you looked like with your hairy shoulders, no nipples, no eyelashes, stick arms, big feet, no bum and red skin. OK, that description doesn't really make you sound beautiful, but you were...you were to me. I almost can't remember how your Giraffe smelled like a rain forest, how you looked getting a blood transfusion into your scalp and how scared I really was. I almost forget how much I wanted to scoop you up and run out the door and take you home.

So, I'm trying not to wish away this time. I love getting up with you. I really don't care how often and I really don't care what time. I don't think much about sleeping or doing a lot of the things that I used to do. I need to soak up every minute, because although time seems like it will go on forever I know this time will fade away too quickly.

Ma

Another great day!

At the Babooblah house, things are running very smoothly. Sha continues to amaze us and we spend every waking minute saying...come see this face, awww, I can't believe we made that and he's so perfect. It has been a lazy day and I haven't managed to make it out of my pjs. Sha is working on turning his head back and forth while laying around on his tummy. Little turkey looks so frusterated and then finally he is successful...only to build up enough energy to do try it again. Currently, he is busy sucking his thumb and gathering energy for another try at turning.

We are still receiving so many wonderful gifts and I really need to get working on my Thank you cards. I must have some done by the time we return to the NICU on Hallowe'en. Procrastination!

Pa toured by is work today and brought home a feast for Ma for lunch! xoxo

So...more appointments, Sha has his vaccinations tomorrow at his ped docs and then and RT visit on Wed.

I am busy working on my NICU fundraiser idea and am feeling more like myself then I have in a long, long while. I think my movie title should be How Ma Got Her Groove Back...and I want Meg Ryan to play me...and Angelina Jolie to play Auntie...because they look so much like us. I have an appointment with the Foundation office at Parkwood on Monday to go over my ideas and get some feedback.

G2G do some laundry from the mess that was created last night!

Ma

Guess where I buy my parts?

Yippee!

Pa was on baby watch last night and let Ma have about 11 hours sleep. Whephf. More hours than before I was prego. Last night the entire family curled up on the couch and watched RV. Robin Williams sure does remind me of Pa...especially when he is in the bathroom typing in secret on his Blackberry or when his GPS is talking to him and telling him where to go! Sha and I went for a walk today and it was so beautiful outside. Life sure is moving at a much slower pace than I am used to. Sha sleeps like a champ and is bottling like a man on a mission. We have a couple of new photos, but Pa is napping and I need his help to figure out the technology.

It feels like life is slowly falling into place, just the way it is supposed to.

Auntie and Lord Uncle B stopped by to cuddle the baby and I jumped into the shower. Sha may never learn to walk...because he is going to spent the first 10 years of his life being picked up and carried from room to room!

I am also busy working on the planning stages of organizing an NICU fundraising event. I am thinking about a fun/walk run in early June in Springbank Park. Many more details to follow...because I'm just thinking about all of the details...head is spinning with ideas...very excited!

Love to all,
Ma